Now I’m pissed off over nothing, over a HISTORY. I mean come on, I have my own history and everything which is A MILLION TIMES worse and more dirty and gossip worthy but PLEASE I don’t want to know yours! As far as I’m concerned, you don’t have one. And now I can feel that wild streak coming on. Where I want to do whatever the fuck I like and not care about any one else until it all comes crashing down and everything is ruined. I should know, I do it often enough!! Yet I never learn from my mistakes and my stubborness (which seems to have the ultimate control over my life) has decided that once again, it is determined to fuck things up for me. Why? Well, relating to my previous post I suppose, it’s bored, and not content with anything at all. I’m perfectly happy to slow things down in my life and be calm and settle. Yet my strange, wild, alter-ego seems to have other plans.

To be perfectly honest, I think I’m clinically insane. But that’s just my opinion. Sorry for throwing this rant at you Tumblr. No one will read it anyway it’s fine.

PS) -later edit- I have done so many things in my life, in the past, that I am ashamed of, I just want to curl into a ball and cry today. And wake up and be in like a fairytale land. Genuinely wish my life was a Disney movie.

I’m getting kinda bored. Everything in my life right now is pretty predictable. I don’t like knowing what I’m going to be doing every single week until I go to uni. I’m shit scared to move away from home and go live by myself in London, but it might be kinda refreshing at the same time. I love everything and everyone in my life, but I wouldn’t mind if things were to get a little bit more exciting :(. I can’t wait for exams to be over.